When The Day Comes

The last breath, the last moment,

Before the eyes close to never open

Before the last leaf falls in Autumn,

On the last night, when the last crescent,

Illuminates our lives together,

The laughter, the love and passion,

Veiled and unveiled by the clouds,

That hold the last drops of rain

To quench our souls for one last time

When they descend, we ascend,

We rise in love, hand in hand,

Carrying everything that created us

Beyond all that's ephemeral,
Between the shadows and the souls.

Someday!

Yellow clouds, pink skies

And the bridge of love in Annecy

She smiles as the time flies

Its wings crimson, soft and lacy,

Her heart, azure and wise.

Vermilion peaks, green ice

And a bowl of pure bliss in Tawang

Assimilating with moist eyes,

She remembers a song she sang,

Long ago, with the butterflies .

A Grey One

She's tired of waiting for her life to be thawed and be infused with a soul. Why is bliss so ephemeral? Why doesn't it rain anymore? The air she breathes is laced with malice. She wishes to get into her cocoon and shut the world out but they won't let her... She wishes to be invisible and dreams about running away to a hilly place where it rains a lot. She wishes... she could open her heart to you, trust you with the most ridiculous ideas dancing in her mind over a bowl of mushroom soup and sleep as you read out to her. She wishes you're around for an eternity. Such selfish wishes! Not really. She keeps them to herself. Your happiness is all she seeks. With or without her by your side.

Seeking Solitude

Solitude used to be her constant companion once. They'd laugh together, cry together, write together and dream together. Life was a beautiful symphony with him. A little insane but mesmerising. She was never alone.

One day, the Soulmate came and Solitude walked away. She loved like she'd never thought she could love. She was enamoured by the Soulmate's resemblance to the image of the perfect partner she had conjured along with Solitude. She was ecstatic and didn't notice the disappearance of Solitude. The Soulmate infected her with bliss. The kind of bliss she wouldn't have known without him.

Paths diverged. Soon came a frightful pang of loneliness.
She now knows what they mean when they talk about being alone. She calls out to the happy Solitude but he has disappeared. He is a fragmented shadow in her scattered thoughts and apathy.

She has to find him. Wherever he might be. In the clouds or the meadows or perhaps basking in the sunlight on a beach. He might have wandered off to the hills or to the place where they spent the childhood watching the rain sing incessantly for days together. She has to find him.

The Rain And The Heart

Stealthily, drenched in melancholy,

He comes, when she cries,

With arms wide open

To embrace the ailing one.

He kisses away the tears

Embraces, diluting the fears,

The ones trespassing solitude

The ones debilitating

The ones poisoning

Every bit of existence,

A painfully lonely existence.

He strews hope in her world

And reminds that the time

That has gone by, that is to come,

Is a lie, tis an illusion

For there is but one truth...

Love within forever stays,

Despite the wars,

Despite the chaos,

It stays, just like him,

To embrace her

When she breaks into pieces.

The Withering Flower

She often wishes to write about the pain that no longer distresses. The pain that still lives, manifests at times as a void or a vacuum in the mind and at times, as a hilarious entity. It kills though; a little everyday. Like a slow acting poison, like the errors in the DNA accumulating over a period of time. An indifference has seeped in. Initially, it was a defense mechanism against the ache but now it has grown to engulf life itself. She is neither happy nor sad. There is no chaos, no peace. Autumn is here. Soon the winter will come in.

The 'to- do' List

Today, I will choose peace and happiness over everything else. I will stay in the present and do one thing at a time. I will eat healthy, be grateful for all the beautiful things that I have and I will watch my breath when unpleasant thoughts barge in. I will pray for people, I will pray for humanity and I will love unconditionally. After all that is done, we will drop the 'I' and be a part of the infinite.